Always choose love xx

Published May 30, 2015 | By Samara

I had one of those days today when I woke up so fearful of what the day held, my future, so many choices to be made, hurdles to overcome just in order to reach for my dreams of happiness..I don’t want for much, yet sometimes those small things seem an unsurmountable task to achieve and fear keeps me frozen, possibly even going backwards to a place that I no longer wish to be..I am sure that some of you can relate??

So today I had two choices, let fear rule the roost and stay where I am unwilling to be open to all that the universe has in store for me or choose the opposite emotion, one just as powerful but cabable of helping you achieve your dreams, and that is love.. love to me sometimes seems like a foreign emotion, I find it hard to connect and don’t always feel comfortable in this space..I love my kids without a doubt but when it comes to putting that feeling to others part of my life, myself included I am definitely on my L plates..but today I chose it anyway..sick of letting fear takes its normal course. I put myself back to a place where I had felt this love for something or someone, hand on my heart and really connected. I let the light come in and felt the love really surge from my being to start and infuse my day, and it felt really good. Really, really, good. I got up feeling hopeful, not quite ready to take on the world, but certainly in a much better space than the one in which I had awoken. So they are my words of wisdom for the day, choose love guys, give fear the flick even if just for a day, and let the sun shine down to warm you world and give your dreams a chance to come true, no matter how big or small xxx

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My life really began for me with the birth of my first child.

I had endured and survived a childhood filled with abuse and had always felt different to everybody else, an outsider. The love I felt for my children began to unlock so many feeling and memories and so my journey began.

That was eight years ago now and what a time that has been, filled with so much pain, sickness and sadness, joy, wonderment and love. So many hidden and repressed memories were unlocked, revealing more abuse, sexual, physical and emotional, hatred, anger, shame and silence.

I sit here now so proud of myself for coming so far and realise that this journey is far from over and may well never be.

This blog is my voice which has been silent for too long, kept inside of me as a big toxic secret.

I am a great mum and love and adore my children. They have captured my heart and helped me to open up in ways I never thought possible. I have shared and delighted in their childhood more than they will ever realise.

We are a loving and very close family of three, having just recently seperated from my partner of three years. It was an extremely hard decision to make, breaking up the family I had always dreamed of but knew our lives had taken a very different path and it was time to be true to what I wanted for myself and my children and move on.

I am a massage therapist studying a diploma in holistic living counselling and so very grateful for all that life has to offer me and for a the chance to create a future so very different from my past. Am I happy?

A lot of the time I am, sometimes I am not so sure and just feel a little distant and numb and there are days that are just overwhelming and such a struggle.

But I am a survivor and have so much love, hope and strength within me that I will find the real me, release my past and connect and help others through my work to do the same.

Always choose love xx

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